No Dream Is Impossible

I tapped away on my computer, faving my favorite deviant artist's latest work. Tomorrow I had a date, and I have to admit, I was nervous, and trying to take my mind off it for a while. I've had a crush on both Yuugi and Mou Hitori no Yuugi (Who I privately nickname Yami due to his dark allure, mmmm...) for a very long time now, and just the other day, Yuugi approached me to ask me out on behalf of the darker.

Of course, the prospect of dating either was appealing; Yuugi was adorable and very attractive, and as for Yami... Well, Yami was extremely sexy. I felt greedy, wanting two guys at once, but can you honestly blame me?

I practically squealed at the work of absolute beauty currently gracing my computer screen. I had just finished up on deviantART, only to find that somebody had uploaded a scan of a very popular yaoi doujinshi on Tumblr - One I've wanted to read for ages!

...Did I forget to mention the fact that I'm a yaoi fangirl?

Go ahead and laugh, or roll your eyes or whatever. I, Anzu Mazaki, have a secret shounen-ai obsession. And hey, if you're gonna laugh at that, you're just a hypocrite. You know what I'm here to write about, so you're clearly in the same boat as me here. Besides, I don't ship every male x male couple under the sun!Just ones that clearly belong together. And the super hot ones. God, I still melt at the thought of that Kaito x Gakupo doujinshi Miho lent me... Okay, moving on.

I closed my internet tabs, including a dance tutorial for a dance I had already learned, which I had open so that I could switch to it and seem innocent if my parents or friends entered the room without warning. After all, this was my guilty pleasure, and I didn't want it taken away! I switched off the computer and climbed into bed. Usually, I'd have stayed up longer, reading fanfiction, used the bathroom and then later gone to bed, but I wanted to be able to freshen up in the morning for my date with Yami. I'd die of embarrassment if I turned up, zombie-like, and with clown-ish makeup, he'd never spare me another glance!

Speaking of Yami, I wondered how he was. It had been barely a week since he and Yuugi had been in that fire. Yuugi had almost died. God, I was worried for both my boys... And no, I don't mean it like that, even though a part of me still wants them. Yuugi, Yami, Honda and Jounouchi are all my best friends, and I guess I'm the mother hen of the group. Still... I hoped that me and Yami could become more after this date.

But... Yuugi could have escaped that fire easily with no bodily harm. But he screamed at us, refusing. That there was no reason he was leaving Mou Hitori no Yuugi. Even if he died... He wanted to see the other one more time. If he'd done nothing, Yami would have died anyway.

My inner shounen-ai fangirl cooed at the thought. Maybe I could get them- No! Bad Anzu! Yes, it was adorable, but... I suspected it was brotherly love.

But...

I shook my head to prevent myself drooling at the thought of them as a couple. Yami, holding the other closely, whispering sweet nothings into his ear.

"Yuugi..."

I could practically hear Yami's voice in my head. Within my fantasy, Yuugi slowly looked up at his darker half, love and adoration shining in orbs of both amethyst and soft crimson.

"Mou Hitori no Boku..."

They were perfect for each other. Yami, going through ridiculous lengths to protect Yuugi before they had even met properly. Yuugi, always fighting to keep the puzzle safe before he even knew about the spirit. The look of hurt and betrayal in Yuugi's eyes when he had forced control away from Yami, crystalline tears cascading down his face as he began to mistrust the spirit of the puzzle after he almost got Kaiba killed... The sudden lack of attention Yuugi began to pay me, and Yuugi's reaction upon finding the puzzle too far out of reach, likely to be destroyed in the fire. I could see them, in my mind's eye, leaning in for a kiss...

Bang.

I began repeatedly hitting my head off the desk, which was next to my bed.. Damn, they suited too much. And wow, that was an odd mix of adorable and hot. I wasn't supposed to fantasize about this! I was supposed to want them for myself! But the images kept flooding my mind, both of them shirtless, making out, perhaps about to do more... God! If I didn't stop my train of thought right now, I'd probably end up starting my own line of doujinshi. Yuugi and Yami doujinshi, to be exact. My mind began grasping for a shipping name, making connections between them. Spiky hair, tricolour, short, puzzle... Puzzle. That was it! Puzzleshipping. It suited them perfectly.

..DAMN, WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING?! I turned over, covering my face with my pillow, and tried to sleep. Seriously... My mind was beginning to freak me out. I had a date with Yami tomorrow, and here I was, practically brainstorming ideas for a doujinshi involving him and my best friend?! And male best friend, at that! It just goes to show, yaoi really does take over your life.

It was Sunday, and I have to admit, I was nervous. My date with Yami was today! I looked at the time on my clock and my eyes widened. Nine-thirty. I had to be there in half an hour! Quickly, I shot to my feet and tore a brush through my hair, before frantically checking my wardrobe for something nice to wear. In the end, I settled for a black tank top, along with my jacket and skirt. I decided to skip out on breakfast; we'd be eating there anyway most likely, and I had to get going; I was planning on walking to the meeting place!

It didn't take as long as I expected to get there. Checking my watch, I noted that it was nine fifty.

Why am I so nervous? I thought, remembering the day before when Yuugi had asked me out on behalf of his other half, in order to cheer him up. 'Then on Sunday, we'll meet at Domino Station at ten.' Those had been his exact words. Yuugi just suddenly asked me this... I couldn't help but wonder if this was something to do with the fire incident. After all, it was clear that both were shaken up after the incident. I jumped as I heard the shuffling of feet behind me, and my jaw dropped.

Damn, he looked hot! Yami was wearing a sleeveless black shirt, the word 'Yuugi' across the front (He was wearing Yuugi's clothes, after all), along with a pair of black leather pants, jacket nowhere in sight. Multiple bracelets adorned his wrists, and he'd tied small strips of material on his upper arms, white on the left, black on the right. He wore two belts, and, as usual, his choker and the millennium puzzle.

"Yo." He said, and I noticed that he looked slightly disgruntled, as if he didn't want to be here. I tried to forget this little fact, however, blushing like crazy and trying to resist drooling. 

"O... Ohayo, Yuugi..." I said slowly, still blushing. He responded casually, and damn, how did he manage to make everything he did look so damn attractive?!

"Ohayo."

If I had been paying attention to his actions rather than his looks, I would have seen his eyes narrow, and him looking away, apparently lost in thought, and pissed off about it, too.

You can do it, Anzu! A small voice at the back of my mind encouraged. But damn... I tried to compose myself., and turned my heated face away from his gaze - wait, no, he wasn't gazing. His eyes seemed glazed with annoyance and boredom, and was that... Hurt? Betrayal? But why? Had I done something wrong? Yami sighed.

"Well... Where are we going?"

I looked at him, and noticed that he was barely looking at me. He showed clear disinterest, and the way he spoke reminded me of his duel with Mai in Duelist Kingdom, when he was thinking about just getting it over with so he could move on and find something better to do.

"Um..." Somehow, I managed to keep composed, and didn't cry. Thank God. If I'd cried, he'd probably dislike me even more. The unannounced rejection stung, but I decided to ignore it. Maybe I could prove that it could be fun at some point on our date - if you could even call it that from how it was progressing so far. "F-first can we go for tea?" I really regretted skipping out on breakfast at that moment. Especially since I could tell that I appeared to be sorely mistaken in my judgement of the other teen. Maybe he didn't feel the same way... He looked away from me entirely. "We can go to the Red Bubble Teashop." I tried not to make it sound like a question, I didn't want to seem desperate. He paused, before finally turning towards me again, giving a nod so quick that I would probably have missed it had I not been paying close attention.

The walk there was silent, and I was beginning to feel awkward. It looked like Yuugi hadn't actually mentioned this to him. He was clearly here against his own will, and it saddened me. The rejection stung once more. Is this why he looked so betrayed? Because his partner forced him to go on a date with a girl he probably felt he barely knew?

We settled in a booth in the teahouse, and I ordered drinks for us both. Constantly, he would keep looking out of the window distantly, arms crossed. The silence, thick enough to slice with a butter knife, continued even after the waitress appeared by our table, and I thanked her. He still hadn't touched his chocolate milkshake. Finally, I broke the silence.

"Where shall we go today, Yuugi?" I asked. He remained unspeaking, so I continued, getting some magazines out of my handbag, hoping to start a conversation. "I brought some tourist magazines. Do you want to walk around this place?" I pointed to an area on a map of domino. "Or go play at this place?" Hmm, maybe the arcade would get his attention? Apparently not. Still, he said nothing, and I was getting even more worked up.

Hmm... I leaned down and slurped my drink, blushing and frustrated. Why was he doing this? I thought he'd at least try to seem interested. Why isn't he saying anything..? I'm getting a headache... As he faced the widnow once more, I had the sudden urge to knock my drink over in a blind rage and scream at him in frustration.

...But I didn't. Once again, I tried to start a conversation. "Yuugi, your accessories look really cool!" To my surprise, he finally turned his head to look at me, slowly.

Bingo.

"Hmm..." His gaze loweded to the ground. "I didn't choose these things." His eyes glazed over, looking distant. His mind was in another place as he continued to speak. "That guy still doesn't have any taste with this..."

Yuugi. He had to be talking about Yuugi. Although I was confused as to why he was critisizing his friend's fashion sense. Besides, it was hot! And I told him so.

"No, it really is cool..."

Yami's eyes closed as he raised his head up again, facing me, and he finally grabbed his drink and took a sip. "He was in front of the mirror for a long time this morning, choosing these accessories." All of a sudden, now that the topic had switched to Yuugi, he appeared much more talkative. My shounen-ai senses were tingling again, and I only just managed to resist hitting my head on the table once more. "I'm still surprised..." He continued, before meeting my gaze. "That guy always cares too much about other people's feelings and doesn't show his own emotions." He sounded... Frustrated? Perhaps I was right in my delirious state caused by lack of sleep yesterday. Perhaps him and Yuugi... "Even today it's the same."

That was it. My mind was made up. I knew we were friends, and yet he seemed to hate the idea of dating me. He looked hurt that he'd been forced into this, and I realized just how much his betrayed look made sense. His posessive and protective attitude towards Yuugi... Wait! I mentally shook my head. Enough puzzleshipping thoughts! Although, it couldn't hurt to pry a little... Maybe find out if  my suspicions were correct..?

"Yuugi, he..." I looked for the right words. If there was a chance that he and Yuugi could be happy together... I wanted him to be able to take it. "He's always worried about you." That would do. No way would I let him think that Yuugi didn't care for him as much as he cared for Yuugi. I could never stop loving the two of them - for it was love, I was sure - but I could see it; those two belonged together.

...Or perhaps I was just going crazy.

He said nothing, but his eyes softened. I stared at him for a moment, trying to see what he was thinking. Nothing. We both looked at the magazines again, before he responded, his eyes shut.

"Ah... We don't know where to go... My circumstance is the same..."

"Eh?" I was confused. What was he meaning..? Where should we go... I guess he was referring to the fact that not only could we not decide where to go for out 'date', but in life... I was pretty sure that Yami was lost, felt out of place. And that saddened me. "Yuugi, I, myself, don't know where to go. Actually, everyone is the same." He opened his eyes, staring at me curiously. It was actually kind of cute. "Sure, we don't know, but we should keep going, even if we can't see what's ahead of us. Raise your head, and puff your chest out, and believe that before you is a place you want to go." His eyes widened, giving me the courage I needed to continue. "Before, I said that my dream is to become a dancer. After graduation, I want to go study dancing in the United States." I think that he was beginning to realize what I was talking about; moving forward, even if it seems cozy to stay where we are, or go back to simpler times. We all have to move on, after all.

"Hmm..." I was glad to see him considering my words. I swallowed, taking a deep breath, before continuing on with my speech.

"When we are here, it is one minute, one second closer to that time. Time has a limit..." Time has a limit. Those words hit me hard. Someday, Yuugi's sennen item will go to another place far away... Time has a limit... "'Don't worry! Your dream will come true for sure!'" I quoted my friend, and a small smile appeared on Yami's face, knowing where the words came from. I closed my eyes, giving a smile of my own. "Listening to what Yuugi says, I've become more confident. Actually, I know that it isn't easy to make my dream come true... But even if there is only a slight possibility, I still want to believe that my dream will become a reality." I rose to my feet. "We're leaving, Yuugi! We'll go out onto the street! There should be lots of places we'd both like to go!"

Yami looked rather shocked at my sudden actions.

We walked through Domino, eventually arriving at a store, with a sign up reading, 'Trading Cards'. For the first time all day, he finally looked geniunely interested in something we were doing, and when we walked in, he was in his element. I froze on the spot, my cheeks red from embarassment as I saw him with a huge, childlike grin on his face. This was the first time I'd ever seen him look like that, as he held a small packet of duel monsters cards in his hands. Finally, he looks much happier... Damn it, he was happier about some cards than he was being here with me?! Guys...

He ripped open the packet, and his eyes shone with excitement as he looked through the cards, stopping on a magic card entitled 'Hand-Sealing Sword of Light'.

"That is a good card!" He said gleefully.

"That's really good!" I cried immediately, leaping at the chance to seem appealing. His next words had my mind reeling once again.

"I have to tell Aibou about this."

Aibou... Partner. I hadn't really thought about it before, but that nickname held something deeper, and I knew it. Was it possible... That he loved Yuugi more than he was letting on?

Pfft, of course he did. He was here, on a date with me, and the first time he showed any kind of interest or joy was when he was thinking about his 'Aibou'. Aibou indeed.

Next, we visited the arcade, and some egoistic jerk challenged me to Dance Dance Revolution. Of course, I managed to win. Yami was slightly pissed off at me for accepting the man's challenge, but looked at me with gamer's pride once I wiped the floor with him. Another thing that showed me that he was still my friend, but not interested in me romantically. Afterwards, we talked for a bit. He told me a little more about what he believed was next, and that he was afraid to move on... That he wanted to remain with Yuugi forever, and Yuugi wanted the same.

...Okay, I couldn't deny it any longer. They clearly had feelings for one another.

I convinced him that he should still try to move forward, and eventually, he agreed to go to the museum. Part of me felt extremely guilty. I'd just increased the chances of him leaving. I didn't want him to leave, not really... Nor did I wish to see him and Yuugi seperated from each other.

Once we left the museum, he looked towards me, looking slightly nervous.

"Anzu..."

I looked at him, curiosity on my face. He begun to speak.

"My Aibou doesn't know I came here today... Anzu, can you keep it a secret? Don't tell him about Isis... Or about the stone slab..."

"Sure..." So, they were hiding things from each other.  That wasn't healthy... Yeesh, I was already thinking of them as a couple. Unbidden images from yesterday once again flooded into my mind... Damn, those two should just get together, dammit! I pushed my thoughts, which were becoming less and less innocent by the second, out of my mind.

"He knows what it means if I regain my memory...' Yami elaborated. "But... I don't think he can accept it yet." Of course he wouldn't. I couldn't bear to think about their seperation. I've never met two people with a bond closer than theirs... And it was still to develop even more.

"You're right..." I agreed. "But... There will come a time when he will... Yuugi's a tough kid."

"Huh..." The male held his deck in his hand. "He and I built this deck together... Half of it is the fruits of his soul! If I keep secrets from him... These cards won't trust me, either!" He held out the cards, and I looked at him. Wow... That was powerful. "When he understands who I am... This deck will display it's true power!"

After that, we got caught up in a crowd, and were greeted by Mai. It turned out that Kaiba was holding some kind of city-wide tournament, and I had a feeling that I knew where we'd be going for our next adventure.

As we walked home, much later that day, Yami sighed, eyes cast downward.

"Yuugi..." I tapped his shoulder gently and looked up at me.

"Anzu?"

"It's just..." I took a deep breath. "The way you talk about Yuugi... He's more to you than you show. Isn't he?"

Yami's eyes widened for a moment, before he closed them.

"...Yes. But I can't tell him how I feel... He wouldn't accept it. And even if he did..." Guilt washed over me. I was the one who convinced him that he should persue his memories. I had stepped in between them, possibly destroying every chance they had to be together. I swallowed, and nodded.

"I understand..." I said quietly. "I understand how you feel. And although I know you'll never feel the same way, I can't help but love you. And Yuugi, too. And..." Tears threatened to escape my eyes, and I blinked them back. "It's my fault. If I hadn't convinced you to search for your memories-"

"No." I looked up in confusion, and saw that his eyes had softened, a small smile upon his face. "It isn't your fault. Deep down, me and my Aibou both know that I can't remain in his heart forever. All you've done is open my eyes to that fact, Anzu. And I plan to make the most of every moment I have with him. I love him too much to waste it."

Wow... I was amazed at his words. Although as the old saying goes, 'If you love something, you have to be able to let it go'... One day, in another life... Perhaps they can finally make their dream come true too, no matter how impossible it seems.